i haven't ever really found a place that I call home....

Its always suprises me how quickly life can flash between amazing, devasting, friendly, cruel, exciting, restless...It makes me more determined than ever to hold tightly to the moments that make me smile. it gives my mind something to wrap itself around when the shit falls.

currently feels like the shit is raining hard, although in reality it's only a shower. i find the time to keep smiling. its important.

Good things are still happening in this city- but it's winter - and starting to get cold.  Of course, cold is relative. By England standards this is closer to autumn, with an added chill in the early mornings and late at night.  But the days are mostly grey and the rain seems neverending some weeks. Nights out necessitate big coats and scarfs, that have no place in the scummy bars of Fitzroy that I like to waste away my weekends in.  Some days suprise you with sun though - even if for only an hour or two. it's enough.

I have found myself with several live gigs on my agenda.  I am going to see Elbow tomorrow night (oooh Manchester i still <3 you!) and Pulp on Friday. Last minute tickets from Ebay helped with that! I also have Gomez tickets for next month. I will not turn my back on my English roots!! Of course, giving the aussies a go too. I saw the Panics not long back, and am seeing Dead Letter Circus in August too. Some new friends from my Friends of The Earth job have also promised to keep me up to date on the local acoustic/folk rolk scene.  I missed music. I am now at one with my ipod again (and have managed to lay my feud with itunes to rest).


I have definately been over-doing things lately. it's hard not to get carried away with everything.  I am such a restless person and any adventure put my way is hard to say no to.  I am trying to master the art of saying no (even to myself).  I never quite manage it.  This week i have managed to remain grounded, although I don't think it will last....and sleep is yet to be something I am willing to have enough of....

I was at this Glastonbury 08 watching Elbow. Can't see me in the crowd though...!